live without dead time.

It's taken me years of living with my walls, months of unsupportive relationships, and nights of falling into bed for the wrong reasons.  It's taken me years to come to the realization that I deserve something good.  I deserve to be treated with love, kindness, sensitivity and respect.  I will not settle for less like I have in the past.  I will not become a victim, or a doormat, or a whore.  I will only allow the hands of a lover who cherishes me to glorify me with his touch.  And in the process, I will let go of the memories of those hands who have hurt me, those lovers who threw me away.  It's taken me years... but I internalize the meaning of self-respect.

Step off the map and float...

I'll be honest.  I miss our friendship.  I miss your presence in our apartment.  

But I'm thoroughly excited for the new chapter of my life.  I'm extremely happy to have the chance to explore my creativity, my mind, my life.  

I wish us all the best.

Praise Nature!

Life has been good... 

I've been listening to a lot of amazing bands: The Provincial Archive, World of Science, Ursa Miner, and The Rural Alberta Advantage (thanks, April!).  This music has most definitely been making a difference in my days.

I'm realizing that it's time to find a place on my own.  It's been difficult living with roommates.  Right now, with my roommate never actually being at home, I float between feeling like I've lost a friend and then feeling as though my vibe has been disturbed when she is home.  It's not fair to either or us.  I'm dreaming of a cute place and another kitten.  

...I'm dreaming of beautiful tattoos and beautiful places.  I'm dreaming of myself.

I'm going through my Touch for Health notes... and these have been some of my affirmations lately:

• I am beautiful and deserving of self love.
• I am full of forgiveness and gratitude.
• I am confident and comfortable in my solitude and among others.
• I am motivated and fulfilled in my own life.

I love my friends.  I love my cat.  I love good vegan food (Padmanadi's Buffet tomorrow!).  I love getting to know myself.